Abaculus

It didn't occur to me it was Valentine's Day Hallmark Day today, until this afternoon when someone mentioned it, then it didn't have a lot of meaning. When told, I was completely indifferent on going back to feeling completely awful. Don't expect loving thoughts here, right now its reserved for the hamster.

As a present to myself, I'm going to take To Done's advice. It is carrying a post about showering twice a day, in aid of sleep. I've sometimes showered twice a day in the past, and I've even been known to shower up to five times a day (my history of youth camps / outdoor pursuits has made it necessary), I've not really done so recently. Perhaps I will try and shower before bedtime, in aid of improving sleep, and generally being nice to myself. Right now I need a lot of tlc.

I've been on medication over the past couple of weeks, that has disrupted my whole sense of being, some of the side effects were quite scary, including the effect on my eyesight. There has been times where I've not been able to open my eyes (it has hurt too much to do so), and secondly my long range vision has started to suddenly get rather blurry. The tablets have produced all sorts of other nasty side effects, which I don't really want to list here, but bottom line is I've now stopped taking them and have to look at other options. A drug that was worse than the one I got prescribed last year, which made me feel as if my mind was literally outside my head. My head felt as if it was extended by about 2 metres. Try thinking when your mind feels as if its halfway across the room.

After the latest bad rollercoaster ride, I'm now trying to bring my body back to some kind of equilibrium, after being thrown rather harshly leaving me in tatters. On that note, I vote for two showers a day.